it's like being on the hibernation mode.

have you ever felt like something's bugging you,
but you can't seem to find out what it is.

stone.

the innocence of this show is just so sweet.
if life can be so that simple.
that's my desktop background now. alongside with pictures of my friends.
oh so super pretty!

falalala.
life's like that.
hmmm. there's like so many gatherings this month.
area 7 CIs' 3 days 2 nights chalet, primary 6 gathering, BRAVO squad outing, sec4 class gathering? not to mention other fun peeps i haven't seen for ages too.
meow meow.

had outings to pulau ubin with emo clique.
SOME shots of our -overseas- trip! all thanks to the one and only, iryani's camera!
bumboat!



entrance of iryani's paradise!

our picnic food(:

-.-"



















hmmm. nice view...



yum yum!!! cookie monsterrrr.

such a familiar place eh.






and so,
i shall conclude that after a couple of ubin trips, i have learnt the following:
1. cycling upslope is a killer for our legs
2. cycling downslope is a killer for our butts
3. i've learnt how to swing on a swing
4. i've finally learnt how to cycle -.-"

lots of thanks to fishy, and once with men men, for cycling with me on a double bike. (:


shall end off here now.
take care people! (whoever that's still reading this blog -.-)

sometimes, i hate the world for being so mean.


hmmm.
i've got my own computer now.
more inspiration to blog.
you know what it feels like not having gone online for months?
it feels like you've lost connection with the rest of the world.
like you're living in this small little bubble you've created on your own.

something random.
it's nice to be living in your own world sometimes.
i love cardcaptor sakura. haha.
i wonder what it'll be like to live forever. like vampires.
meow meow.

shall fly off now. lalala.

hey there.

how have you been?
i'm doing just fine.
it's been a long time since i've sat down here to rant about my life.

my computer ain't fixed yet so you can see how miserable my blog has become.
what more can i say about the mundane routine in my life.
10 days to a levels mother tongue paper. and CL course.
pw is really a pain in the ass (sorry. haha. but that's the truth)
i need a computer ):
i realised many things through this period of the time of no blogging.
i have concluded that i do not need to talk everything about the life i live.
maybe i'll blog some time again. my brother's com ain't as inspirational as mine.
take care there.

have you ever cried all out and wake up next morning feeling as empty as a vacant shell?

my exams are over. long long time ago.
it's just that after that, when i feel like blogging, i realised my computer has passed away...
tsk tsk.
hence, i won't be blogging plenty plenty (though i really wanna blog plenty plenty)

maybe if some miracle happens that would allow me to have access to my own computer, i'll blog till then.

take care peolpe!

i don't know what to blog these days.
it's rather sad not to have motivation to do so.
it's like i've been sucked dry.
i really want to fly to a corner where no one would find me.
i want to busy myself with lots of activities so that i can drown these thoughts of mine.
sigh.
make it stop.
it's haunting me.

it's such a sad sad night.

it's crying.


it's so sad; it's crying out loud with roars of thunder. sigh.
let me cry with you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

enjoyed my yesterday with our birthday girl, cynthia, and sean, yueying, leslie, rafael.
caught a movie at amk hub. yueying, as usual, didn't get the plot -.-
then trained down to dhouby gaut to play pool.
arcade was next.
played silent hill and maoooooo.
there were like so MUCH cockroaches that attacked me in that particular game.
so cynthia and i screamed and screamed -.-"
went to meet chermaine and jacinta after that for dinner at swensons.
waited super long for the food to arrive. ice-cream cake for desert!
we made cynthia's birthday rather well known with the song sang so loudly. haha.
i think my present to her was super adorable okay.
flew home after that. yay for cynthia's who is all grown-up(:

had a dream today.
dreamt that i had some disease and that i had only a week to live.
i wasn't as afraid to know that i was going to die as i was afraid to know that i had to leave you.
i dont wanna ever have a day where there's no you.
i'll never take it for granted; my friends and you.

hmmm. a random rant.
like iryani, i'm annoyed with all the changes in punggol end and airport's viewing mall.
i detest changes.
it disturbs me everytime i take the bus to punggol end and see new changes that irks me.
it disturbs me seeing construction right in front of my eyes when i want to admire the beauty of the planes at the airport.
i really hope there will be no other changes. it's damn disturbing and i hate it.
why is it that in life, changes are inevitable.

it's the start of a new month.
happy birthday dear esther!
geog lectures are never the same without you.
wooo ~~~~ you're one year older already. please grow up and get over yourself.
hahaha. joking. happy sweet 17th(:

hmmm...
wanted to update long ago.
just that the computer spoilt my mood. so darn slowww.
caught an episode of grey's anatomy just now.
yep, despite watching that episode for the third time, it still brought tears to my eyes.




sigh. i miss them.
had dinner with them last week.
it was barely two hours. but i can say that it's all worthwhile.
look at the 4 happy dudes in the picture. (:
extremely grateful to have known them.

carmen.
i hope your physics is all right now. busy woman really wish to help you some day. stop eating instant noodles anyway. later you balder than me then you know. haha. i remember my first impression of this junior. l-a-m-e! cardcaptor sakura & grey's anatomy stayover!! looking forward to that day(:

grace.
o level's coming already. tsk tsk. don't study until so hard lah. make me so guilty only -.- i miss baking and smacking flour all over your face. haha. and i do miss you force-feeding people. hm. you haven't come to my house for a very long time already. we'll study hard now and play hard later! all the best for exams(:

iryani.
masterrrr. i hope things are fine at your side. i miss whining to you about all sorts of things. you're always there by my side, without having to ask any question; your company's more than enough. jojo apologises for not being there for you at times when you were down. jojo still hopes that fishy has the strength to carry on despite all the things that drowns her with sorrows. really wished there was more time, for us to stone, for us to catch the sunsets, for us to ome. must study hard all rights. missionary will always be right here supporting you. let's ome when exams are over. p.s. hope you like your new hair collection for your loong loong hair! (:

There is a hero...
if you look inside your heart
You dont have to be afraid
of what you are
There's an answer if you reach into your soul
and the sorrow that you know will melt away

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
on my own
And i know that i'm strong enough to mend
and every time i feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
and I live, one more day
and I make it through the rain

if you need to find a way back
Feel you’re on the wrong track
Give it time,
you’ll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You’ll be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you’ll learn to fly

I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
See me running through the open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly...

i'm having camp fever.
feeling rather down actually.
ahhh. tomorrow having tests. school's like going to end at 6.30pm ):
i want to stay at pulau ubin just a little longer.
things are so much more simpler there.

pics from area 7 adventure training camp 2008!


day 1


night 1


day 2


oooh. don't you love pt. haha.


hmmm. where is the bermuda triangle...


drink lots of water please! lol.


"when will the rain stop so that we can stop making butter with our right hand?"


cheese!


campfire's burning now. burn! burn! burn!


group performance!


day 3


atc 2008 instructors.


we love our camp coord lots(:


yay!



haha. i hope my blog ain't decomposing too fast. woots. will be back to update soon.
byebye people!

it's either i don't have the time and mood to blog,
or i'd be dead tired to blog once i've reached home.

i can't stand people who are selfish.
i can't stand people who are so full of themselves.
lastly, i can't stand myself.

please take me back to where there's people whom i actually know.
it's such a sacry place out here.

yayyyyyyy.
iryani bte haron's birthday is fast approaching!!!

today.
econs test was a disaster. it's going to be the start of mrs ting's torture.
love pe lesson. cause this would be one of the rare few times i can get to spend time with cynthia while showing off our floorball skills.
maths test was ... ...
ct period was super funny. me and yue ying laughed out loud in the lecture theater because of something so coincidental. haha.
gosh. it's been so long since we've caught up. i wonder if we would ever find the time to catch up anytime sooner.

chemistry mock spa tomorrow ):

seems like i've nothing much to blog for now.
econs test tomorrow. i want to write like crazy. very very crazy.
essays are like terror for me. cause jolene writes <60 words per minute.
speed = very little words X 45 mins = very slow
haha. okay lame.
oh. monopoly isn't as fun as the game monopoly i used to play when i was young ):

hello.

disappeared for quite a while.
hmmm.
nothing much. it's just school school school.
and i'm sick of it.

the highlight for last week was area 7 games day.
played dodgeball. sjc vs monfort. damn hilarious.
then, there was the thrilling tug-o-war.
first time screamed till i found no voice coming out from me.
played captain's ball with fellow CIs against cedar girls.
then, mr pang lead the cheer and said he'll give the unit a treat. overall champion.
how i wish squadmates were all there. miss screaming and going crazy with them.

okay. besides that, there's really nothing much to say about my life.
get well cynthia!

sometimes,

we all need a little reminder to remind ourselves that we are not as good as we thought we were.
you were good in the past doesn't mean that you'll still be good in the future.

we should be doing better.
sigh. i'm not good enough.

baa baa black sheep, have you any wool?
yes sir, yes sir, three bags full.

hmmm.
funny nursery rhymes.
i'd be freaked out if my sheep answers me in english.
haha.
is it really educating to teach children that sheeps speak when they don't?
okay. THIS IS SO RANDOM -.-"

i've only went online to do project these days.
or else. i'm not online.
duh. common sense rights. haha.
yesterday.
had atc meeting. no comments.
then it was fun fun fun after that.
ahhh. mother just brought in coffee for me. yum yum.
anyway. as i was saying!!!
it was quite an adventure having to eat our brunch, pull van out of the mud, then prepare uniform at some random place, then flew to hta to shoot a few rounds, shop, stone at the top of mt. faber, find the famous katong laksa, find a spot to watch fireworks, then home.
yay. i've summarised everything in just one sentence.
in which if teacher sees it, will probably fail me for poor sentence structuring. ah wells -.-"

brrr. as much as we want our lives to go on smoothly, things will never go the way we want them to be.
thus, i'm going to try ignoring these unneccessary worries.

why do we try so hard to fit into society.
to find a place where we belong. to be accepted by the people around us.

why do we try so hard to prove to others we are not inferior, that we are as good as them.
boasting one's capabilities hides the weakness one has inside.

mao. thoughts flooding my head once again.
p.s. i miss master. she's the best to laugh with, to go crazy with, to stone with, to cry with.

... ... ...
i'm partially deaf now thanks to the ear infection.
do you think it's related to the ulcers all over my mouth? and me feeling super cold when i'm under the blanket in room temperature? and the types of sore throats i had? lol.

comparing myself to my very young self in primary school,
i realised that i am a super unfit, sick kid.
this is going to be the how many times i am going to visit the doctor -.-
yes, despite getting gold for napfa for the sixth time in the row(thank you thank you),
OKAY. that's really not the point. haha.
the point is, i'm just weak.

i found this very meaningful quote said by yueying herself.
"the strength on the outside may not reflect the one coming from the inside."


hmmm...
do you know that sometimes, we all need a hearing aid
to aid us in listening?

05 July 2008 - 6th batch gathering



















06 July 2008 - punggol end with you.





11 July 2008 (international shit day) - emo clique gathering






























they are the ones i find comfort in; always bringing a smile to my face.
miss them super muchhhh. i am so so grateful to have met them.
how i wish time could just slow down for all of us.
gosh. i love you guys.


yep. haven't been blogging for a really long time.
i have 2 ulcers on my tongue! ow. okay. random -.-"
hmmm. dont wanna update much about my life anyway.
feels pretty much haywired.

thoughts that i've pondered over(which i haven't done that for such a long time):
- making assumptions don't mean we're smart. it actually makes us look stupid by concluding what we think is right. but, the fact is, it's not right. hence, do not assume. get our facts right before making ourselves look like a fool.
- to find out the irony in life, you must: See the situation, the Expected outcome, and the Actual outcome

despite problems bugging me,
just being with the super rare friends and the super rare you is enough to make all sadness vanish.
loves.