i'm sorry.
i was busy. i took you for granted. i dont deserve you.
i'm self-centered, stupid, useless.
just tell me that i am.
i'm not tat weak. i can face that harsh reality.
although weak is what people would always think of me.

but who cares.
JUST tell me.
who really cares about OUR welfare.
NO ONE!
woohoo. woo hoo hoo hoo.
i realised tat just only yesterday.
when we were labeled careless of others' welfare.
to simplify it, we were the cruel heartless meanies.
always scolding, never praising.

but no one seems to notice.
our welfare.

because when you're all grown up,
no one would care.
the attention you recieve as an innocent toddler,
the hugs, the kisses and the cuddlings,
gone.
now, insults of lousy jobs we did are 'awarded' to us.
there wasn't even any words of praise either.

the littlest things that take me there.
i know it sounds lame, but it's so true.
i know it's not right but it seems unfair.
that things are reminding me of you.
sometimes i wished that we could just pretend,
even if only for one weekend.


looong post for long legs!
woohoo.
FILLING IN BRIGHT COLOURS INTO MY NEVER-DULL-LIFE!!

signing off,
happy kid(((((:

fell asleep in the bus till i overshot two bus stops -.-"
and while walking back, i saw a crowd around an ambulance outside pierce secondary school.
which, made me had a flashback. hmmm...
anyway! i'm here to post some pictures before i get mugging(:


peeps at a birthday party!



the birthday girls!



birthday cake cut by karin and me(:



allergic to cameras lah.



FAT FAT!!!



HMMM...



HMMM... ...



TWINY AND DADDY!!



fudgy chocalatey cakey(:

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you

havent blogged for awhile.
training yesterday.
nothing much to say on tat.
packed the cca orientation stuff.
long debrief at mr pang's lab.
and we all decided to have our meals at compass.
played till 6 plus.
which is normally the time where training ends.
hmmm. our weirdest training in all years in npcc we had.
releasing anger. venting on others.
relieving stress. crying to sleep.
recovering health. more sleep.
reminiscing memories. bad.

realised the previous post was actually 12 jan, 11.26pm not 11.26am!
haha. thanks qian yi(:

AND i accidently deleted the whole post while trying to edit tat -.-

yue ying, amanda and cynthia threw me and karin a party yesterday. hahas. it's the best! i have. they're such sweet people okay(:

anyway. i wanna post up the pictures BUT. i couldnt find my video cam in the bag. i wonder who could have taken it home huh cynthia -.-

karin's back(:

first day of school's the same as the previous 3 years here.
talks talks talks. so yeah.
orientation camp's next week.
clashing with my birthday once again. like the previous 3 years here.

happy birthday. to myself.
sheng ri kuai le. wo dui zi ji shuo.


my logic.

people get lazy.
because.
there is nothing in this world that.
motivates them to get things done.

such people. desperate to find some optimism in life.
for example. me.
but who gives a damn to a girl who has no findings in almost 16 years of her life.

grey's anatomy season 3
"how to save a life"
The Fray

PEOPLE!!!
karin's coming back tomorrow! yay. yay. yay.
i miss my mama ))):