i'm sorry.
i was busy. i took you for granted. i dont deserve you.
i'm self-centered, stupid, useless.
just tell me that i am.
i'm not tat weak. i can face that harsh reality.
although weak is what people would always think of me.

but who cares.
JUST tell me.
who really cares about OUR welfare.
NO ONE!
woohoo. woo hoo hoo hoo.
i realised tat just only yesterday.
when we were labeled careless of others' welfare.
to simplify it, we were the cruel heartless meanies.
always scolding, never praising.

but no one seems to notice.
our welfare.

because when you're all grown up,
no one would care.
the attention you recieve as an innocent toddler,
the hugs, the kisses and the cuddlings,
gone.
now, insults of lousy jobs we did are 'awarded' to us.
there wasn't even any words of praise either.

the littlest things that take me there.
i know it sounds lame, but it's so true.
i know it's not right but it seems unfair.
that things are reminding me of you.
sometimes i wished that we could just pretend,
even if only for one weekend.


looong post for long legs!
woohoo.
FILLING IN BRIGHT COLOURS INTO MY NEVER-DULL-LIFE!!

signing off,
happy kid(((((: