JOLENE. MUST. STUDY.

why must autocad and avs paper come before chinese new year.
that brat brother refuses to help out in the chores.
great.
loads of housework and homework to do before chinese new year.
revival of my not-so-shiny boots shall be done while i mug for econs test that is so going to happen on tuesday.
jolene shall resist the temptation to hit the bed whenever she's feeling lazy.

and oh,
2 HUGE PRESENTATIONS ON MONDAY.


sheet.

when an opportunity comes knocking on your door,
don't just ignore it.
ANSWER IMMEDIATELY!!!
because, the chance will not be there forever.
so, lately, i feel the urge of join-all-you-want, for the fear that i'll let a single rare opportunity to slip.
i don't wanna let go of anything that may never come back to us once it's gone.

but anyway,
i haven't been really responsible lately.
I HAVE BEEN PROCRASTINATING IN MY WORK.
since the start of this term,
i've been flopping on the table during lessons.
i'll gain back my motivation and study hard during chinese new year.
i'm a little excited about ITP this coming march.
i hope the company i'm attached to will be a great experience for me.

woots.
nose peeling from HRC. haha.
roar roar roar.
may i have the permission to log out, and switch off the computer, sir.

earth is spinning too quickly.
i'm about to throw up.


if slow is fast,
then why ask me not to take too long.

we learn,
but are we really applying what we have learnt correctly.

autocad bores me.
not in a mood to start emc brochure either...
oh wells.
a bit of procrastination won't kill.
or will it?




Ne-Yo - Mad Lyrics

mmm, she's staring at me i'm sitting wondering what she's thinking,
mmm, nobody's talking, cause talking just turns into screaming,
ohh, and now as im yellin' over her, she yellin' over me,
all that that means, is neither of us is listening,
and what's even worse is that we don't even remember why we're fighting.

so both of us are mad for, nothing
fighting for, nothing
crying for, nothing (woah)
but we wont let it go for, nothing
no not for, nothing
there should be, nothing
to a love like what we got, oh baby

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing,
asking questions like you already know
we're fighting this war, baby when both of us are losing
this ain't the way that love is supposed to go
what happened to workin' it out?
we fall into this place where
you ain't backin' down
and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now?

it's all for, nothing
fighting for, nothing
crying for, nothing (woah)
but we wont let it go for, nothing
no not for, nothing
there should be, nothing
to a love like what we got, oh baby

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

oh baby, this love ain't gon' be perfect
and just how good its gonna be
we can fuss and we can fight
long as everything's all right between us
before we go to sleep
baby we're gonna be...

ohhhhh

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

a whisper.where?everywhere? to gossip or to tell someone sweet nothings?

eyeshifts.lookout?judgemental? afraid that the person you're backstabbing might just appear and overhear? oh so much guilt for you. i'll be happy if you even have a conscience.
grudge-holder.forgive?forget? or bear it forever?

a smile.real?fake? i don't know. we'll never know.

friendship.genuine?hypocrite? how do we spot them? are we one of them, if we look inside hard enough?
competition.healthy?unhealthy? when someone does well, are you happy for them? or are you pissed off by the fact that they are better than you?
words.keeping?worthless? can we actually take back words we gave?

paranoia.truth?overreacting? what if it's not? what if you're really not thinking too much. what if it's true?
thoughts.share?keep? maybe i won't say it cause i have no idea what's on my mind too, believe it or not.
decision.indecisive?stubborn? fickle minded. i change my mind on almost everything. what is wrong with me.
future.aim?bleak? have we decided where to go or are we just walking to wherever the path leads? moving on to where?
reality.accept?reject?

self-denial.

this mess. i've got some tidying up to do.

hello 2010.

oh you seem like a scary year.
i feel like sleeping through the year.
and wake up to a day where i've no worries or regrets.



oooh~
remember those years when boy bands used to dominate the charts?


An empty street, an empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

[Chorus:]
So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

I try to read, I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking. (oh no)
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again...

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of

Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

Say a little prayer (my sweet love)
Dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue (woah yeah), to see you once again my love. (oh my love)
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... My Love.