looks like i'll have to disappoint a lot of people in all sorts of reasons.

i hope everyone can forgive me.

hmmm.

maybe after some time, i'll fade into an unnoticeable presence.

the girl who almost made it, always.
be it in studies, work and others.

think i should stop relying on anyone anymore.
cause when they start to get tired of you always needing them to find your strength back,
they'd get frustrated for you being so weak all the time.
then you'd realised it's not always so great to confide in people some times.
to realise you have taken the could-be happy moment from them because of your lack of confidence and pessimism.
and you'd feel like you've been betrayed when people say that you can count on them, and yet they'd tell you off when they start to get sick of your never ending complaints and whining.
yes, i'm not trying hard enough.
but for once, i just want to take a step back and not fight so hard.
cause no matter how hard i try, i am always the one who almost made it, but never really did made it in the end for so many things.
oh wells.

i guess there's no point thinking about it.
time to revise for the final term test of poly life.



tracking back to the previous post,
think it sucks for the old man who was the husband.
did you notice his heave of sigh when he asked her how was it.
clearly, he knew at the end of the day (or life), she still had not moved on and her heart was still with the one who got away.
no matter how hard she tries to hide it, he knew but said not a word.
think it hurts to realise after all these years, despite having moved on,
he was not the one she truly loves.

just sayin'.

in this video,
which character best describes you? who would you think of?
and i wonder to myself...

"be a better human in life"
that's what someone would always say.
and that someone really made a difference in my life.
i'm really thankful to have met such persons.
i've learnt a lot, seen things in another perspective,
gotten opportunities to grow.
all these, i will carry with me throughout my life.

on a side note,
as our course of 3 years is coming to an end,
so much uncertainties in life have begun to surface...
and the question is, where would i able to go from here?



and i know i said it was fine,
but i can't help but feel the hurt as i witness it happening right before me.

i'm going to work hard, study hard.
i will. i will. i will.
i'm not going to be lazy anymore.
just for the next 4 months i will.
determination please come back.
do not let anything else affect you jolene.
i can do this!!!

on a side note, it's been a while since i've gone back to sjc for npcc.
feeling a bit uncertain when i go back next week...

lots of thoughts to process.
oh wells.

last semester in SP.
nothing much so far.

uh, i lost my phone again.
too lazy to go find my old SIM card to recover some of my contacts.

want some peace.
the holidays just ended but didn't get some rest time for self.
working was fun but didn't get to recharge myself for the final sprint in SP.
now feeling so lazy to start a new semester.
need time to rivitalise.
can't wait to finish fyp report. due in less than a month's time.


hmmm.
gotta find the courage to go through this life we have. no one is to be blamed. but to tell you the truth, it is starting to affect me badly. still, i don't want to give up, i don't want to let go. i need to be brave and face this, no matter how much it hurts. i know this is worth fighting for.
till i blog again.

everything just doesn't feel right.
jolene, what's the matter with you.
why are you feeling like this.
why are you acting like a child.
why have you stopped making sense as you speak.
why, jolene, why have you become like this.
so many issues that needs confronting about,
but why does it seem like you have lost your ability to express the things that need to be addressed.
but i did try.
things just don't come out right.
something's just not right with me.
i'm not like how i was before.
i don't recognise this person at all.
i can't understand what's going on in this mind.
could this be a part of growing up?
a new environmnet, a change in attitude, a change in life?



a song that i stumbled across coincidently today.

i just can't seem to study this module!
everything seems so foreign!
it feels as though i've never attended any of the lectures because i'm having such a hard time trying to understand the contents!
oh wells, i guess i only have myself to blame for not paying attention in class this semester.
come to think of it,
i can't seem to recall what i've been doing in lessons for the past few months!
hahaha.
oh wells. i really love nights at the airport.
chilling here alone with a drink and awesome music on my laptop.
and thus, i shall go back to my attempts to studyyyy. zZz...


hello you.
do you know how scared i am?
i just don't want this to end.
but i seriously don't know how this will turn out.
i'm just cherishing every moment of this.

i'm extremely vexed about this particular line of issues.
it's really pressurizing.
like what someone told me right from the start, when you take this up,
you'll need to learn how to strike a balance with school, work, cca and a life.

yes, life.
i haven't gotten to hang out with my friends as much.
i'm not blaming work, really, cause i do love what i do there.
it's just that i've been the one missing in action for many occasions lately;
that i've been that one person who is. just. not. there.

i miss the people i've spent one of the best years of my life with.
although they have all been so understanding, i feel like i've let them down terribly.
i miss emo clique.
i miss my squadmates and juniors.
the simple joys we share.
i really hope my next holidays would give me more time to meet up.

but in order for holidays to come, i must get through the 5th semester's exams,
which is a really important exam as it is partially my final sprint.
and the thing is, i'm not ready for it at all.

and i haven't even gotten to spend time with both sides of the family.
cause i'd either be sleeping, working or rushing my tutorials when they are home,
or they'd be sleeping when i'm awake and free.

sigh.
i feel so tired that i can't even find the right words to describe how i'm feeling lately.



if only you knew how this feels.
but this time, i know, you wouldn't know.

at last, some time for myself.
not working for this entire work.
dedicating the week for fyp.
done with it for the day so i can afford to put some time for blogging finally.

slightly over half a year has passed.
and what a roller coaster ride it has been.

-takes a deep breath-

i have had really poor judgements this year.
the decisions i've made are beginning to backfire me real badly.
what's worse, i no longer have that drive to follow through everything properly.
at one point of time, i just wanted to drop every responsibility i have.
and i did, which is why i'm struggling to pick everything up again.
like a person who has thrown a stack of organised documents up in the air,
i now have to pick them all up from the floor and sort out the mess i have created myself.
to add on to that, people are getting frustrated and disappointed about my lack of performance.
i just don't meet the expectations.

sigh.
maybe i should let go of the past.
cause i'd never fail to think of the hurt i went through for my start of 2011.
yes i admit, it just surfaces in my mind at times.
and all the what ifs and whys just keep coming.
but this is no way to live, i know that.
yet, why can't i stop thinking about it still.

maybe i should make my choice soon.
i should let go of something to prevent any further loses of the more important things in life.
i have to.
i'm not good enough to keep everything altogether, so i have to let some go.
it's the right thing to do, is it? both ways seem selfish to me.
damn, there's so many reasons for me to end it, but i don't know what's making me hold on to it still.
i just can't explain what is it. i just know i should hang onto it.

i have no regrets.

i hope i have the strength and courage to go through this to the end of the year.


hmmm.
after so long, time to myself seems so precious.
i need more of it, because there's so much more to reflect about.
there's so much more i've yet to realise.
over the past few months, i've been so busy that i failed to see the more important things in life.
thus, all that i've done over this period has been a failure.
because i did not learn or grow or improve after going through each and every one of the things.
sigh.
i guess i should start on my work now.
till we meet again.

i just don't have the answer for you.
when you are actually sincere in asking me what's wrong, i'll tell you.
but saying things like that is how you really wish to show how much i mean to you,
then you shouldn't be bothered asking.
i'm not worthy to be a friend to care about.
i know now so i'm just going to leave so that i wouldnt be a burden to any of you.
i promise i won't be an irritant to you all.
i'm sorry things had turned out this way.

i'm not good.
and i'll accept everything that you have said about me.
perhaps it's true, i'm that horrible monster you have described me to be.
it's a great wake up call, honestly.

i know this post may potentially make things worse,
so i'll understand if you decide to hate me after all these.



everything just seems to be firing at me at all sides.
i can't take it.
i've got to let it out somewhere.
there's really a list of things that's bothering me.
i just needed to say it here, the most hurtful one of all.
i know not many would read here anyway.
and after this, i'm not going to talk about it much anymore.
i shall put this matter to rest.
there's no point explaining myself.
cause the rest of it shall not matter.



-------------------------------------------------------
to my loved ones,

i sincerely apologise for letting you down.
i'm truly sorry for hurting you.
i really don't know what to do.
just give me some more time to make it up to you.
i know you are disappointed at me, but i'm not giving up on our friendship.
i wont, because people like you deserve to be cherished for a lifetime.
although many times i feel as though i'm undeserving of such great people, i'm still thankful for having them in my life.
really truly grateful.



sigh.


i just wish for the earth to stop spinning.
i just wish for time to stop.




so close,
it's a shame i'd let all that i've once held so tight slip away at this near end point.
my goals, my dreams, my second chance.

finally, the holidays are here.


i'm just going to update what i have been doing and will be doing at this period of time.
(trying to keep track of my life since this blog has somewhat become a timeline of happenings in my life)


what i did the past 10 days:

1) MICE Presentation (Friday)
handicapped group. it was really tedious. only had 1 week to complete it while other classes had 2 weeks to do it. also the only group to have 4 people. but i'm grateful we survived it. slept only 3 hours the night before.

2) Cadet Leader Camp (Friday - Saturday)
because of MICE presentation, barely had time to prepare full u and lesson plans. and there were multiple sets of clothes + shoes/boots to bring to school along with my laptop cause i had to rush from SP to SJC. oh wells. Camp went all right. don't wanna elaborate much here. slept 2 hours that friday night. left earlier in the afternoon. went home to bathe and caught some sleep before starting the midnight mugging session (elaborated in the next point)

3) Officially the start of intense mugging (Sunday)
Overnight mugging at airport. in which i ended up sleeping (& drooling on my notes seriously) 3 hours out of the 7 hours there. lol.

4) 5 module papers (Monday - Friday)
worst mid-semester test ever. serious. and because i had only begun mugging for my papers a day before each module, i had really bad sleeping hours & patterns.

5) 3 day/night work shifts (Friday - Sunday)
on the very day we ended our mst, went off to work after having lunch with clique. kinda dead tired for friday and saturday night shifts. to sum up, it's a rollercoaster ride whenever i work. ups and downs in every shift.


and now, the start of yet another busy week.


list of things i'm going to do this 5 weeks:
1) Errandssssssssssssssssssssssssss
2) Final Year Project meetings & assignments
3) Workkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
4) Gatherings with Primary school, Secondary school (squadmates & emos), Poly, SYF people
5) Kayaking at ATC(s)
6) Area 7 ATC/STC Recee & IPC
7) Helping out in LMSC
8) Unit Camp
9) Execution of Area 7 ATC/STC 2011
10) Drill competiton preparations (hopefully can find time to go down help)


that's all i can think of for now.
hmmm. it's past 3 in the morning.
less than 5 hours of sleeping left. sad.
pretty dead tired from the past 3 day/night of workshifts.

oh wells.
goodnight people.

what's the matter with......
sometimes i don't know how to deal with all that.
really, i can't handle all these at once.

i don't know how i would be able to go through this period of time without the help of a few great people in my life.
i must think of something to show my appreciation to have them in my life.
i shall find time this holidays to do so.

i would type more but i shouldn't.
cause i still have 4 more papers to go.
and i'll continue after my last paper.
i just needed to pen down those few thoughts first.

i think it's better that i go back to my old self back when i was in year1.
i feel that i've grown into an utterly disappointing person over the months.

sigh.

patience, jolene, patience.

it's getting a little bit harder to juggle with school, work, friends and cca.
i have 7 days a week. (duh)
every week, 5 days of school with 3 day/night of work shifts.
my weekday can often stretch from 8.30am to 12.30am (of the next day).
reaching home and settling down at almost 2am, i would seem be too restless to do my homework (if there is any pending)
and there can be lessons to catch the next morning too.
npcc stuff is climbing to its peak now.
but i haven't been doing alot and contributing as much as i used to.
i also have a few other miscelleneous things that need commitment as well.
and lately, i've been depending on others to pick up my slack,
which i feel odd allowing that.

i'm not complaining.
just wanna describe my new found lifestyle in year3 of poly life.
but i gotta pick up my pace now.
i really should stop being lazy. really, i have been nothing but plain L-A-Z-Y.
seriously jolene, you should start to see through your priorities in life.
you set it, you show it.

finished watching survivor redemption island last night.
such a bittersweet finale.
i'm pretty affected to see how awesome friendships forged in the season had to end that way.
it's like... all those adventures in the island that have brought everyone together, would then gradually dissipate as the game comes to an end.
but i don't want it to end! )':
nevertheless, i'm so glad to see Boston Rob winning!!!
great respect for his gameplay that has stretched over an unbelievably time of almost 10 years already!
oh my, a decade.
anyway, pardon me for being so random but i just wanna say that
i so looove the couple Rob & Amber~


so anyway, more about my life.
i have been losing alot things in this period of my life.
you, laptop screen that cracked, file and organiser, itouch that took a dip in seawater, handphone.
and that's not all.
i guess i've lost my patience too.

i really should stop being so reckless.



random thoughts:

Thought #1
everyone has a story to tell.

Thought #2
we can't have it all. we can't always expect to get everything that we want.

Thought #3
when we gain something, we tend to lose something.

Thought #4
how can there be a hero when there's no villian?

Thought #5
the thing is, who wouldn't want to be the hero instead?

Thought #6
i should be more careful in life now.

Thought #7
i shall fade away, slowly now.

uh huh. yep.

so it's almost 4am and i shall hurry.
almost too often, we find ourselves fighting against time.
yes and sometimes, we do what we can to outrun so many.
no, it does not mean we should cheat- thinking you can get more time
by taking shortcuts all the time.

in just a moment, week3 of this semester would have been long gone.
and soon enough, we'll realize so much has passed us by.
things that may have stayed. and things that may have gone or faded.
i wished i had more time to grasp it all a little tighter.

this post shall be evidence of my insignificant thoughts that may simply be nothing but an oxymoron.

... and already, it's past 4 in the morning as i say goodnight.

there's more to say,
but i just don't know how to explain it.

maybe we shouldnt make promises,
because it creates expectations,
in which would also create our downfall, when we least expected it.

for everything that has been happening in my life right now,
i tried. i really did try my hardest.
but no matter what i do, for however long i do,
i still am not getting things right.

maybe i'm trying too hard.

maybe no matter how hard i try,
i was not meant to be good enough.

i'm sorry for everything.

who is going to motivate the motivator who has lost his/her motivation to self-motivate, let alone motivate others.

initiatives.

it's been long since i've updated.
1 week of holidays left.
and most of it would be burnt by work as usual.
oh wells.
will update here again soon i hope.


random thoughts:

hollow.
does it mean like an empty vessel, which makes a loud noise when struck?

shallow.
does it mean the lack of depth in whatever it is referring to?

no one likes a hypocrite.
even if they are one themselves.

what i have done or will be doing this holiday:

1) Work
2) PPCDL Course
3) Final Year Project
4) Time with Family and Friends
5) Reading (finally, have got the time to do that!)
6) A teeny weeny bit of NPAP
7) Other NPCC Unit/Area matters
8) NYAA diary (i really should stop procrastinating)
9) studying for 2 theory tests... ...


overall, i'm mostly busy with work.
still undergoing the training; 2nd week at it.
pretty bad at all this. the whole new thing.
but oh wells. it's a fresh start.
it's not really something i'm good at, and i almost gave up on the second day.
really didnt expect to have to learn so much just for this job.
but i'll get the hang of it i guess.
i'm appreciating the whole new experience nevertheless.

received our results.
i had already been mentally prepared to get not-so-fantastic results.
but what i hadn't anticipate was the sheer diappointment i would still feel.
i can't complain much;
i had allowed myself to be far too distracted by that, in which have resulted in this outcome.

what i'm most worried about is how i'm going to juggle work with studies and npcc when year3 starts.
but i believe in myself . (i have to)
all i need is time management and self discipline.
because i need work, for money and for myself to be kept busy.
busy enough to lose focus of an aspect of life that isn't worth my time.
so that i can shift my focus back on studies.
and also hope to be more involved in sjc this year.
in fact, with work, i feel more alive;
it feels great to be actively learning something entirely new.
it's been quite a while since i've gone exploring new environments.
it's pretty refreshing to be working in new places with new faces.

so in less than a month's time, we're going to be year 3.
over this long holiday, i've managed to find that bit of focus and determination for studies back.
obviously, i'm going to say this:
I AM GOING TO WORK MUCH MUCH HARDER FOR THE LAST YEAR IN POLY NOW.

gotta redeem myself!
i'm ready to fight the war! (the enemy: myself)
Me vs My very own Laziness/Procrastinations


aites, shall be on my way to work now.
till then~


life is about choices and sacrifices.

holidays have been great so far.
cherishing every single moment of it! (:

ah what the heck.

who am i kidding with.
achievements, status, looks etc all don't matter,
because when you truly love someone,
your heart wouldn't see any of these.

it's true indeed that no matter how good you are,
there will always be people better than you.
but these people who are better than you will not make a difference,
when all you could see is the person you've given your heart to.


do you know that i'm still holding on to our words.
fcking foolish.
to be holding on to words that you have long forgotten.
jolene, you're an idiot. stupid.


i know i'm not good enough.
no matter how many times people would convince me otherwise,
telling me things like i deserve better,
the truth is,
loving someone should not be about whether or not we deserve each other.
i really am done trying to find an explanation.
i am finally just going to accept the fact that i lost you. because you have found someone better.
it has not been easy to let this sink in.
i already have my closure to this.
but why are all these thoughts still lingering in my head?
not now, not when my paper's in less than 12 hours' time.
i must accept this, really put this down, and walk away.
move on.
i really must do this now.

note to self: you're not coming back.

I feel like I'm drowning in ice water
My lips have turned a shade of blue
I'm frozen with this fear
That you may disappear
Before I've given you the truth

I'll bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here (I'm dying here)
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I'll bleed my heart out just for you

I've always dreamed about this moment
And now it's here and I've turned to stone
I stand here petrified
As I look you in your eyes
My head is ready to explode

I'll bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I'll bleed my heart out just for you

And it's all here in
Black and white and red
For all the times
Those words were never said

I'll bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I'll bleed my heart out just for you

I'll bleed my heart out just for you.

i didn't want to wake up from that dream.
i felt safe, comforted and belonged.

remember the times we'd imagine what we'll be, how we'll be, and where we'll be in future?
back then, everything was perfect,
and i'd never imagined things would have come to this stage.
it's funny how in 2 months, we had become worlds apart.
and as we reach and pass each ones we used to discuss,
do you look back and realise every little occasion we had been anticipating have gone nothing like the way we had described it'll be?
it turn out the almost total opposite of what we had envisaged of it to be.

our expectations in life = not what it seems in reality.


you're stranger than a stranger.

goodnight.

HEY THERE!

yeah you!
i know i havent been blogging much,
so... in order to prevent you from all the boredom,
you can now follow me on tumblr! (if you really need something to read)
though i don't talk anything about my life there, it's still nice to read posts by other strangers/friends.


http://stalking-inprogress.tumblr.com/


ciao! (:

my motivation is like a car, without petrol in its tank.
so no matter how hard and how many times i step on the accelerator,
the car just...
does
not
move.

no drive.



first paper done. but it was really horribly done.
i didn't study much.
i practically read through the notes instead of really studying it.
and hours before the paper last night,
i still couldn't find the urgency to really sit down to start revising it.
so for the first time, for a long time, i went into the classroom without feeling nervous or desperate for more time to study.
what's worse, i just couldn't bring myself to feel remotely worried for the fact that i barely was able to answer half of the questions on that paper.
it's not that i do not care about my grades now.
it's just that. i ran out of fuel. to be driven by motivation at the moment.


you used to be my source of motivation.
well, one of the sources.
but anyway, the main thing is that you're gone now.

and the more i think about this thing about having someone as their pillar of strength,
the more i find myself so naive.
the things i once believed in were so ridiculously stupid. (more specifically, the ones from you)
it's not that i think these things i believed does not exist,
it just does not exist in you, not yet.
i still have faith in the things in life that are incredibly precious and unbelievably hard to find,
and i definitely won't find them in you, not at this point of time in your life,
now that i know who you truly are.
as you can see, i don't regard you as hopelessly messed up.
i have faith in you. i have confidence in you that you can do better than this.
so when you're done changing, or when you've decided to finally grow up,
i hope you'll learn a thing or two in life.
one of it is that you can't just play with people's feelings without caring what it'll do to them.
and that when you say you're serious, please understand what it really means to be serious.
i've a whole lot of direct, straightforward comments to you.
but i'm just going to keep them to myself.
i doubt all that i've said here would ever get to you.
so no point wasting my time typing this message long and well elaborated when it's never going to reach you.
besides, you would find whatever i say here now to be revolting.
i can imagine your attitude towards this as you read on.
probably cause of your ego or pride or whatever.
you'll be like: whatever la. let her think what she wants.
and then i'll be perceived as the person who doesn't have a clue what's really going on, and that i am making myself look really dumb and stupid talking 'nonsense that is utterly exaggerated/untrue'. am i right? laughs.
but in any way, i'm not sure if i would be able to witness that change from you, even if you eventually do become who you said you're changing to be.
it won't matter much to me anymore if i'm not there to see all those changes because i'm not pinning any hopes on that.
at least i'm grateful i was there for a brief moment to be there with you in the process of some of the changes.
although i wouldn't be there to see the outcome of all that, i still cherish the opportunity.
please do take care of yourself and all the best in your future endeavours.


p.s. i'm not saying as though i'm perfect. cause i am obviously not. i'm flawed. i'm just ranting here for the sake of getting rid of the remaining feelings of being hurt by all that has happened recently. so that i can stop feeling sad (as you can see, the wave just came crashing into me again randomly) and get back on track!



all right.
i'll be on my way~
gotta fuel up and get ready for an awesome drag race!
the finish line: end of poly year2!
i'm ready to focus now!




chiong ahhh.



happy valentine's day.

go on... hurt me somemore.



cause i dont really care.

not now. not anymore.

a very interesting snippet of some random chat.

X: u re those active and enthus type of ci?
me: hahahauhhhhhhhhhhh. can say so lah.
X: icic... good ma.
me: but maybe not going to be so active at the end of this year. concentrate on other parts of life in 2012. before the world ends. haha.
X: haha....which other parts of life?study or u mean other than tt...
me: study plus friends. plus enjoy life a bit if possible..
X: haha.... stil single?.
me: haha. no time to have boyfriend lahhh.
X: i know.. npcc is ur part time boy friend. stead so long liao..lol..
me: haha. ya lor. 7 years lor. maybe i should get married to npcc.
X: haha... cannot la...then u die liao... ur hubby also wont die.
me: hahaha. my hubby got SO MANY wives already lor.
X: ya lor,,,.
me: so if i die, he wouldnt be sad. lol.
X: haha.... how can it be? no emotion some more. break his heart he also dun care.


hmmm.
okay, it isnt really very interesting afterall.
it's just a stark reminder to myself about this topic.
i really am thinking of letting a part of it go.
less commitments to this means i can finally explore what's out there,
and perhaps make new commitments to other aspects in life.
mmm... we'll see about that after this year.




i've been wondering,
what's the difference between habits and addictions.

the reason behind why you do the things you do...
is it because you're so used to it that it becomes a habit,
or that you've become too hooked to it to break that addiction?

huh. so this is how life is one month later?
hm. funny how things have played out.
it seriously doesnt feel like a month.
it feels way more than that. like it has been a badgood three months. at least.
i guess time really crawls when misery is at its best.

i .... ... am happy. that's all i'll ever be allowed to feel.

i need a new place to study through the night.

a new place with no memories.



sigh.

where did you go.
i have been selfish to you.
it wasn't fair for you at all.
i dont know what i'm feeling right now.
nothing feels right at this moment.
i didnt expect things to turn out this way.
argh.
and this time, my words are failing me terribly.

it seems like it's been a long time now.
but it's just a little over half a month ago since it all begin spiralling down.
2 weeks 1 day to be more precised.
i no longer feel hurt. just disappointment.

i've tried to make sense of it all,
and i know some questions may just be left unanswered.
and although i was the one who had to find out the truth on my own,
i'm satisfied.

people say that if you stop bottling your problems up and confide,
you would feel better.
well, i've told my story to the great people in my life,
but why is it that it feels as though i'm not yet done telling yet,
and that the one person i wish to tell is .

pathetic. sigh.


speaking of which,
got back our last term's test papers.
results have been slowly slipping away.
i hadnt been paying attention to it last term and i was already prepared for the outcome of my distraction,
so all i can say is that i have no time to lose.
i've gotta take this as an opportunity to catch up.

on a side note,
this morning, i had a sudden personal revelation.
the sun is always rising, and setting, somewhere for someone to see.
at any point of time, there will be a sunrise happening on earth.
it happens all the time, every single moment.

I AM SO OVER IT!!!

i've never felt such pure joy for weeks already until yesterday.
best new year ever!
thanks mel for the awesome date!

the universe is wonderful :D
seriously, like what mel said, what are the chances of encountering such a thing?
i'm grateful for it.

lesson well learnt!

my closure to this issue cannot get any better than this.

Well Done!



It's a good start to 2011!