it seems to me that the june break lessons are even more tedious than normal school lessons.

yesterday.
came late. was pretty amazed by the empty seats our class had.
we overslept due to the previous night's birthday party for marcus.
i think the cake was super lame. cheryl's idea -.-"
anway, my name was being called out by our econs lecturer can.

"jolene ng!"
stunned.

"where are you? raise up your hand. don't try to hide!"
it took him quite a while to realise that i was waving frantically at the front of the lecture theater -.-"

"is this correct? is your answer coincidently like my answer on the screen?"
panicking. nodded my head and said ya.

"WRONG!"
apparently, he likes to test us on our alertness.
and the actual answer he gave after that was actually my answer on my tutorial. i was just shocked by his sudden randomness to call out my name so i anyhow replied him -.-"

moral of the story: the rate is always increasing, even if the graph is fluctuating, when it's positive in the percentage change.

haha. okay. enough of being random.

screwed up geog practice and chem test.
gahhhh. i need to study super hard for mid years. 25 more days! ):


You always used to say I should be
Thankful for every day
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or at least how the story goes
(but I never believed then ’til now)
I know I’ll see you again I’m sure
No it’s not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face
But they can’t take yesterday
They can take tomorrow
And the plans we made
They can take the music
That we’ll never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away


have you ever woke up, feeling shocked that the sky is no longer dark, thinking that you're late for school. jumped out of bed, ran out of the room, and then realising that there's no school on a saturday.
have you ever felt curious about the future that you start to wonder how would things be like, but to find that it's too scary for you to carry on thinking.
youdeservemuchbetter.yoursmileisevenbetterthanseeingashootingstar.pleasecheerup.
okay. i know i'm very random. ha. was thinking about lame stuff yesterday.

grrrr,

just you wait.
i'll show you that i can do well in my studies.

pw. chinese. geog. gp. chem. econs. maths.

syf training.
trained GOH girls with saleha.
helped out for fun cause i know i won't be there for all the trainings due to school.
we ended up not going ndp training today.
so ended our day pretty early.

ate super alot for lunch cum dinner.
haha.
there's just no words to describe how i felt this night.
shooting star.
it's so beautiful it makes you want to cry.

i'm blogging while you're asleep.

it's past 2 in the morning.
it's not about how late it is now. though it really is past bedtime.
it's about what i'm doing with time.
i'm idling time away.
i worry for mid year exams yet i'm not doing anything about it,
such as studying. haha.
everyone seems to be busy with their day and i'm jealous of that.
i think i've rushed too much in life that it has become a habit.
and now that i'm free, i feel super depressed. cause i've been thinking too much once again.
thus, i'm packing the june break with a lot of activities. ha.
this saturday i'm going for syf and ndp training -.-"

mariah carey's bye bye is one those songs that makes me tear ):


my dear carmen.
i'm honoured that you still read my archives but !!!
haha. anyway, you're so adorable that you got me worried last night -.-"
hope to mug with you another time (:

had a wonderful time last night.
i met my classmates at airport?!?!?
it was quite a bit of shock cause everytime we were there at that kind of timing, there were usually only a few people wandering about.
but! it was really packed last night?!
ah wells.
the moon was really bright yesterday. and some stranger was sleeping at my favourite spot in the playground):
okay. that's all for last night.

byebye.

saturday has gone by pretty quick.
humph.

phew. finally got the week over and done with.
thursday. had npap aar cum photoshoot.
tskkk. i'll miss the people there definitely. and miss wearing pants too -.-
friday, i had my first official npcc unit training as a CI, if you don't consider ccc and cca orientation training lah. haha.
funny thing was that i was feeling anxious for training.
when our gp tutor said "okay, you're dismissed..." i immidiately pushed back my chair and stood up, ready to fly off to sjc. lol. i really do miss sjc a lot.
hmmm. training was short. came late cause as usual, school ended late. and most of the sec2s had some course.
ah wells. shall fast forward.
had dinner. ramily burger (:
carmen, marie, iryani and me at usual spot in compass.
gosh, i miss those times. it's been awhile since we last did that):

then today, had math lesson in which i was late. i guess i rolled on the bed too much that i forgot about the time -.-
went back home after extra lesson and waited for cynthia and yueying to come.
mugged at mos burger till the sky turned dark.
bought stuff from popular then home we went.
had an enjoyable time with them. it brought me back to the time when we were sec ones.
just that 4 years ago, toot looking we were, and a lot more playful and shorter -.-"

so that brings me back to today, at this very moment.
i shall go off now. going for a spin. brother fetching mother from her course.
i love car rides (:
ha. take care people!

i can't think with you taking away my breathing space. i'm suffocating. i need some time alone.
沉在盒子里的是你给我的快乐，我很想记得可是我记不得

i honestly feel tired.
yet when i tried to get some sleep, i can't.

gosh, i think i'm going to fail terribly for econs essay.
what was i thinking? to go into the lecture theater with my mind filled with stuff totally unrelated to elasticity of demand.
i feel lousy.
lousy friend. lousy daughter. lousy student. lousy girlfriend.
if i could turn back the time, if i knew how this would end, i should never have started. the silence. i thought by keeping quiet, i could avoid all that.
even though we know how the truth hurts, we would still want to hear it.
and when we hear it, we refuse to accept it.
funny how self-denial works.

perfect imperfections.

it's the name of the novel i would want to write. haha.

but what about imperfect perfections.
hmmm.

last weekend was fine(:
fell asleep super early on friday night. probably tired out, due to the fact that i was feeling rather sleep deprived(by then) since i couldn't sleep the previous night.
had dinner with relatives on saturday.
and spent some time staring at the fine night's sky.
stayover with carmen at airport.
ate breakfast at ya kun. we were freezing. so we had warm tea, 2 nice soft-boiled eggs and toast.
yum yum.
then went off to meet my pw group for gpp dicussion.
discussed quite a while at starbucks.
afterwhich, waited for mother to arrive at suntec and shopped with her.
it's mother's day you see.
lunch was good. but expensive -.-"
went home and died. haha.
woke up, went online, did a bit of pw and then went back to sleep.
okay. done with my weekend!

so, today.
school was all right. thought today passed by pretty fast.
was rather distracted. listened to mp3 during all the breaks.
i love the song that ashley sent me. (:
now you wanna be free, so i'm letting you fly.
reached home. did homework.
i did a bit of exercise before that. i was already smelly after pe so might as well train a bit. haha.
econs essay yet to mug.
another hectic week.

haha. realised how super long is this post.
i guess it's a make-up for not blogging so long.
all rights. that's all for my boring life. take care people!

Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness.

it's like a big part of me has been ripped out.


thus,




i feel empty.

you rock!!! woohoo!

rock: any aggregate of minerals in a solid state.


haha. lame.
just here passing by to keep the blog alive.
tomorrow's geog test!!! ahhh ):

i was woken up by cynthia who was super nervous about musical today.
daddy must thank me and yue ying, for she dragged us all over town yesterday.
i helped pick the dress (:
hmmm. so the musical...
the storyline was not bad. reminded me of sjc's play last time.
oh i love the dance ensemble a lot. they were really good.
blahhhh.
super tired to elaborate.
shall post some pictures and end off then. ha.


cynthia is the tallest today -.-


bored people before the musical.


[si hui] [esther] [jolene]


comic book and i (:


random thought.
there is an aunty who is super zi lian.
sHe loves to act popular yet, she doesn't sell books.
interesting right.
HMMM.
i shall wonder...
and wonder ... ...
and wonder somemore.
haha.

i finally finished one third of my homework already.
awaiting for the arrival of cynthia lim.
and then for wong yue ying.
zZz.




i miss airport.
there's this tiny feeling of joy when we would go there.
running up the escalator, eager to know which planes have parked at the viewing gallery.
be it jumbo quantas, jumbo cathay or tiny ana.
aye. i want to express my love for the airport but i doubt anyone could understand, despite ranting endlessly. haha.

secret hiding place. you can run. but you can't hide.