a whisper.where?everywhere? to gossip or to tell someone sweet nothings?

eyeshifts.lookout?judgemental? afraid that the person you're backstabbing might just appear and overhear? oh so much guilt for you. i'll be happy if you even have a conscience.
grudge-holder.forgive?forget? or bear it forever?

a smile.real?fake? i don't know. we'll never know.

friendship.genuine?hypocrite? how do we spot them? are we one of them, if we look inside hard enough?
competition.healthy?unhealthy? when someone does well, are you happy for them? or are you pissed off by the fact that they are better than you?
words.keeping?worthless? can we actually take back words we gave?

paranoia.truth?overreacting? what if it's not? what if you're really not thinking too much. what if it's true?
thoughts.share?keep? maybe i won't say it cause i have no idea what's on my mind too, believe it or not.
decision.indecisive?stubborn? fickle minded. i change my mind on almost everything. what is wrong with me.
future.aim?bleak? have we decided where to go or are we just walking to wherever the path leads? moving on to where?
reality.accept?reject?

self-denial.

this mess. i've got some tidying up to do.