there were doubts.

doubt i can do it for o levels.
doubt i will make it in life.
doubt those words said by you.

Even though the blame’s on you
I’ll take that blame from you
And you can put that blame on me

bored. can't sleep though i want to. stupid blocked nose.
sickkk.
went to the doctor's just now.
she gave me mc.
don't know whether i should use nots.
figured that i should still go to school for orp and teacher's day audition.
ah wells. see how my fever goes tomorrow morning.

this time. this place.
misused. mistakes.
too long. too late.

so far away. for far too long.

me and iryani shall continue to be deep in thoughts.
wondering what we are doing.
wondering when it will all end.
odd.
different situations. same frustrations.

laughs.

have been so hysterical recently.
wahahaha.
wheeeee.
woots.
but does anyone realise...
i should be getting on with my pace to study already.

dont know why but i find comfort in going online.
to read my loved ones blog.
yes i admit, although everyone seems to busy with their own lives,
it's good to know how they've been so far.
i slept 18 hours you know.
had to compensate the night that i missed.
laughs.
okay. i should start studying like now. goodbye world.

everybody has once again begun to play the old-time classic game of
pretence.

(:
i find comfort in;

now all these begin to set me thinking


spent the night with iryani mugging.
well, before that, we had a lame talking-on-the-phone competition. lol.
hoho. i'm doomed for physics. i snoozed when i flipped a couple of pages of my physics guide -.-"
so i spent most of the time reading.
while master begin wondering what quotes to fill her worksheet.

watched the sunrise at our favourite hideout with carmen and grace.
already, iryani and i found ourselves fast asleep in public for awhile.
went off for family day after that.
basically spend 70 dollars worth of coupons buying FOOD.
thanks grace for giving us goodie bags when we were leaving. (:
enjoyed our time rotting till the event was over.
iryani and i were once again the biggest sleeper.
i had to find toilet paper halfway -.-"
then we all left.
gonna finally lie on my green bed and sleep, once after my hair is dry. haha.
yayyy.

.

charging my mp3 now.

holding back.
got back the rest of the papers today.
i was grateful i passed everything, except amaths of course.
somehow, i find no reason in celebrating.
cause. last night i realised that the people called "family" don't even bother supporting their loved ones like how people will always say families would.
thus, i've decided not to go for prom.
there's no reason for me to attend this graduation night when i feel no part of me have graduated proudly.
so iryani and i will go out on that night in SHORTS and SHIRT.
while everyone else put on their gown and dine at swiss hotel.

yay.

thanks christabel. your sms-es last night were sweet.
i'll mug hard for chinese -.-"

and thanks hazwani. for those encouragements.
kak misses adik lots.

finally, grace.
cheer up too. you've always been there to comfort me.
i hope everything will be all right for you.

home early.

nothing much before recess.
waited for time to pass.
then spent two hours doing amaths paper one.
got back our amaths prelim paper.
not much reaction.

went home after lunch.
i keep on forgetting these days.
forgot my calculator.
forgot what i studied.
forgot to meet.
forgot to reply.
and forgot to forget this.

when we take things for granted.
and when time passes without much notice.
things change, people leaves.
then you'd regret not having realised the significance of their presence.

run. fly. dive. escape.