i was just


traumatised.



it's cynthia's birthday today.
happy birthday daddy.

played a game where we began walking around sengkang.
it was sweltering hot under the mid-day sun.
but figured the walking and the worry that cynthia might spot us took my mind off things.
settled at jacinta's house for the party.
her house was really grand.
went bugis after that.
left early.
i walked as fast as my legs could carry, changed trains, and finally,
met master at compass.
said nothing, just there watching her eat her meal hungrily.

thanks iryani.
for letting me drench your shoulder today. perhaps we both refuse to admit the answers that we've been asking ourselves. but somehow, we'd know the answers for each other. and that o levels should be the main thing that's in our heads now. monkey really appreciates fishy company today.



i woke up,
feeling the pain setting in.
the world out there's so freaking cold.
i wonder if i was really shivering for the temperature so low
or the fear so overwhelming, that it left me trembling today.
WHATEVER IT WAS, THAT FEELING SUCKED AWFULLY ALOT.

why.
i doubt anyone could answer that once again.
gone with the wind.
whooosh.