all i have to say is........
MY HOLIDAY IS SO SO EVENTFUL!!!

finally, i'm almost done with this week.
monday: training. committee meeting.
tuesday: law assignment. driving lesson. training.
wednesday: CIP at hospice.
thursday: project. caught up with yue ying and cynthia.
friday: international water week conference training. water festival prep.
saturday: youth olympics volunteers briefing.

hugga ugga rah!
-.-"

okay.
let's rant.
it's because we fear of people incapable of accepting reality, refusing to see the agonising truth, that is why we lie.
we live in a world of deceit.
we are so afraid they'll react in a way we do not wish to have to see them react.
hmmm.
i've been wanting to blog quite a number of times.
but somehow, something would always crop up before i start penning down my thoughts. or more like typing down my thoughts actually...
ah wells.
i'm not going to complain i'm exhausted.
i, too, do not want to say out all my unhappiness.
because it's childish. freaking stupid. insignificant to let others know.

jolene, why haven't you grown up yet?
when are you planning to start thinking like a sensible person?

i realised. i've become so afraid.
no courage. no confidence.
full of fears.
fears of everything.
fear of looking what lies ahead.
the changes which make me miss the past even more.
the future scares me.
cause, i have -
no strength to persevere.
no strength to carry on.
no strength at all.
so scared that i'll look away and pretend i've seen nothing.
see no fears.
playing in my own game of pretend.

children, let's close our eyes and pretend we are eagles, soaring above the skies.
children, let's use our imagination and pretend we're astronauts walking on the moon.

now, let's use our imagination and pretend that there are no worries in this world.