a real long post.

my new addiction.


this show seriously impacted my life.
it's the most unique documentry i've ever watched.
i've become so attached to them.
and each death affected me quite a lot.
some fans would critize the researchers for not providing aid to a dying or an injured meerkat.
but i don't think it's right to intervene nature's way of life.
still, i miss those who have passed on.
you know there was one time, this baby meerkat called blossom wandered off and away from the rest of the group.
it was pretty unlikely that the young meerkat would be able to find her way back and survive on her own without her family.
and when the adult meerkat youssarian realizes that she was missing, he frantically searches the area and finally found her again.
it was like she has been given a second chance in life.
however, when she failed to stay close to the group once more, she was lost again.
and this time, she paid the ultimate price - her life.
my heart dropped when the eagle picked her off the ground and the thing was that, she was so close to being found by her family members.
she was never seen again.

at that point of time,
it made me wonder about second chances in life.
why is it that sometimes, we can't seem to grasp onto the second chance we've been given.
are there anymore chances once we've ruin the opportunity.

okay.
i'm like doing reflection on a show which people might not even heard of it -.-

hey look!
jolene's slacking her ass off watching animal planet every day.
she's such a lazy donkey who is like a spoilt sheet, rotting till she's rotten.

boreddd. can't sleepppp.
i like this song i first heard on men's bloggg.


Already gone - Kelly Clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another that doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

why does it seem like it's harder to breathe when finally, i took the pair of scissors in my hand to cut what's choking me.
suffocation.