It's 2018.

Much has changed.
Do I even recognise myself at this point?
I thought I'd learn and stop making the same mistakes.
I'd hope to have someone who would push me to be a better person, because I need someone to listen to my rants, my questions in life, and ask me what the heck am I doing. I need someone to discuss with me the difficult questions that needs answering in life.
But then again, who am I do wish for that?
I've looked back, and acknowledge I've been terrible, I've been far too weak. I've grown fearful and doubtful. I've been undeserving.

Please, Jolene, please be strong.
May I no longer be weak-hearted.
May I no longer need to seek validation from people.
May I no longer depend too much on any one person.
May I stop hurting others, and stop being selfish.
May I not always think of relationships as being transactional, and only reciprocate when I've received something from someone.
May I find the strength and courage to do it all.