uh.

maybe i'm just avoiding things.

i used to satisfy the empty feeling i have inside by eating.
chew munch swallow digest
but as time goes on, realised that i'm losing my appetite.
and the empty feeling goes eating me inside out.

sat there last night.
till my mother came to fetch me home from rp.
was looking at the moon that was almost full.

how much is too much?

ah wells. toodles.

BLOG CLOSED FOR THE NEXT FIFTY FOUR DAYS.

o levels!

anybody who has got ears listens,
but how many would genuinely listen.

sometimes,
we really do have to look back at time to see what have we done wrong that cause the misery.
sometimes,
i'd rather not speak.
sometimes,
if we try explaining, the whole situation would be made worse.
sometimes,
it's good to be the bad evil meanie. because someone's bound to be the one.
sometimes,
i think about the little things in the past that made me smile yet made me sad.

all the time,
i'm grateful to have you guys by my side, to dress my wounds up each time i was hurt.
to listen when others ignored.

meow.
jojo wonders if iryani's feeling all right.
PLEASE GET SOME SLEEP IF YOU'RE READING THIS POST IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
woots. jojo has been spreading 4 years of propaganda for master already.
don't think i don't know. no coffee bean for you!!! or any other caffeine stuff.
have more rest and fish food okayyy.

there's a reason for all that happens.
but you need not know the reason behind this.
and i will take the blame for the loss. not them.
i'm sorry. for upsetting you.

baa.

MUGGING LATER!!


11 sept. sunset at punggol end.
- iryani's great photography skills -














on that day too, we named 8 trees standing across the road, opposite a mysterious bus stop!
who knows. one day while waiting for a bus, you'd realise 8 trees staring back at you. haha.
it makes me happy with the thought of our newly wild-imagination-created
happy tree friends(:


but will we be really all that happy?

i was just


traumatised.



it's cynthia's birthday today.
happy birthday daddy.

played a game where we began walking around sengkang.
it was sweltering hot under the mid-day sun.
but figured the walking and the worry that cynthia might spot us took my mind off things.
settled at jacinta's house for the party.
her house was really grand.
went bugis after that.
left early.
i walked as fast as my legs could carry, changed trains, and finally,
met master at compass.
said nothing, just there watching her eat her meal hungrily.

thanks iryani.
for letting me drench your shoulder today. perhaps we both refuse to admit the answers that we've been asking ourselves. but somehow, we'd know the answers for each other. and that o levels should be the main thing that's in our heads now. monkey really appreciates fishy company today.



i woke up,
feeling the pain setting in.
the world out there's so freaking cold.
i wonder if i was really shivering for the temperature so low
or the fear so overwhelming, that it left me trembling today.
WHATEVER IT WAS, THAT FEELING SUCKED AWFULLY ALOT.

why.
i doubt anyone could answer that once again.
gone with the wind.
whooosh.

do you know that feeling.

where you should be hungry for not eating for the entire day,

yet, when you take a bite,

you seem not able to chew properly,

tasteless, tough, awful,

and harder it was to swallow it down.


digestion.
do you know that if we don't chew properly, we might get indigestion?
now that's a not nice feeling to have.
i bet carmen would know the whole process best.
she loves drawing organs and all. haha.

did other school papers over the past few days.
but i've still got so much to finish up ):
i feel rather frightened that we have only less than two months to o's.
i feel rather frightened of stepping out into the world, without the protection of teachers and parents as we graduate.
can anyone tell me why is life so that scary.
ah wells.
now i'm beginning to wonder what to wonder.
really, i doubt anyone has the answers to my questions,
so i shall just go back to studying.
yayyy.

She's trying to figure out why the world is so cold

Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get some clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.