remember all those wonderful plans we lay before us.
the wild and imaginative ideas we'd plan.

i've always loved a happy ending to a drama.
it's because of all the sad and dramatic twist in the story
that makes us wanna continue watching it;
we want to see what will be in the end.
but sometimes, watching too happy endings makes me shrug and not believe it.
because it becomes so unrealistic that things can turn out all so well.

i feel like i am walking on air.

i've been trying to let go of stuff.
i figured that if you wanna achieve happiness,
you must let go all of your sadness.

went for a jog anyway.
OKAY. it was more of a walk due to the REALLY BAD STAMINA.
i've been getting lazier these days.
i really need some motivation to keep me running.








gone for ug camp. 20 - 22 March.

listen to the rhythm of the falling rain...

it's been raining loads these days.
sometimes, the smell of rain reminds me of times when i was young and carefree.


I've been travelling on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone
Dead and gone

I turn my head to the east
I don't see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west
Still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north,
Swallow that pill that they call pride
The old me is dead and gone,
The new me will be alright

presenting to you...

COTTON & BUTTON!



cotton lazing around.


button watching me taking a photo of him.


cotton and button playing.


cotton grooming button.


cotton wondering who's that on top.


cotton stoning.


cotton snuggling in her plastic bag.


she's chewing it (if you can see) -.-


cotton putting her head into the plastic bag.


cotton resting on the bag.


button hiding.


button curious.


button playing around...


in he goes.


hellos!


cotton looking in the other side -.-



there was this huge rainbow painted across the sky today.
was taking the bus from hta when we first noticed it,
and it didn't disappear even when we've reached lot 1.
it was so beautifully big that many people stopped and took a photo of it.

it stretched across the sky, splaying its brilliant colours.
and my mind goes pondering.

-warning-
this post is crap.
it's for ranting sake.



what i've been doing: staring at cdc lesson slots

i was dazed today.
didn't really pay attention to what's happening around me.
and when my instructor was telling me a bunch of stuff,
i told him: it's raining.
and he said even if it's raining, there is no such thing as no mood to drive cause it's raining.

i don't know what i'm doing in my life right now.
people, we shouldn't be asking this question.
we should stop saying i-dont-knows.
we should know.
i am going to look forward, and not look back.
jolene shall now take the step to move on; to grow up.

so, i have been missing for quite a while.
cause clearly, i dont know what i've been doing.
whatever.
did you know i used to get annoyed with people who like to use "whatever" so freaking often.
it made me irritated that they didnt care for things they should be caring for.
uh. get it?
hmmm. guess not.
but yeah. whatever.
cause happiness can't be achieved when people care for the wrong things.
because the things that we care for are sometimes not worth caring for.
because if we care, it goes to show that we still hope for the best,
and that we have this little belief things will turn out okay.
but sometimes, we should stop being so naive to believe it would ever happen.
'cause sometimes, hopeless situations ARE really that hopeless.
and if you only realise it after pinning on so much hope, it will just break your heart.
like how i broke my own puny little heart.
yes, no hope. not at all.
last night was crap.
i can't take crappy attitudes. i know i deserve crap, but i'm not going to accept it always.
i realised that. i have verbal diarrhea.
it means i can go on ranting and ranting and ranting.
i have a lot to say.
treat it as compensation for not blogging for so long.
hmmm.
i have cravings for my childhood songs.
if you realised my blog songs are a bit classic...
i'm listening to old songs when i've just told myself to look forward.
i should find futuristic songs in future. laughs.

okay. i'm done ranting.
goodnights world.

presenting to you...
THE MOST MYSTERIOUS ROAD SIGN IN SINGAPORE!!!
i'd like to think that the road was happy that's why it's smiling.
miss driving by that lane.
if anyone know what this sign means, do tell me cause i cant find it in the theory book.
what if BTT ask me this question?!?! -.-




You know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh
and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm go ing through,
I just Can't Smile Without You.
You came along just like a song
and brightened my day,
Who'd've believe that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away.
And now you know I Can't Smile WIthout You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm finding it hard to do anything.


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