i love you. you love me.
we are one batch CITs.
with a 9 day RC, 4 day ATC.
3 more days to POP!

back from camp.
we weren't exactly there for fun.
and for the first time in any camp i've been, i wanted to go home.
but we managed to survive through atc together in the end.
missed BRAVO.
we were splitted into 6 different group:
HURRAY!
BOOYAH!
MOVE IT!
OI! OI!
EH!
WHOA!

haha. and obviously OI! OI! in bold is my group name luh.
Own Initial! Own Involvment!

OI! OI! dengan lumpat sedia!
roll call one... two...

LOL. i tell you. i wanted to just burst out laughing.
i shall publish another post about all my beloved after our POP.
really can't do without them being there(:
shall go prepare uniform for pop training and classification shoot for tomorrow.

woots! (:

I AM BACK ((:

after the 9 days RC, it seems like i have lost touched of the world.
haha.
just want to say that,
BRAVO D07's the best squad(:
missed the marching around hta. from 5 plus in the morning to 10 plus at night.
even when it was raining so heavily, we were still marching together.
missed all the crappy food with lame girls telling crappy jokes.
(the guys are still forever gay)
wahahaha.
and my bunkmates who always wake up at 4am to start polishing boots -.-"
i won't elaborate much on all the days cause it'll be a super lengthy one lah hor.
anyway, yesterday when we all headed home, i discovered that the people around us were getting further and further, PINCHING THEIR NOSES.
but the thing is, i dont find us all that smelly what.
haha.
so i reached home at 10 plus last night.
it still doesn't feel like i have been through the 9 days residential course though.
ah wells. 2 more days to atc.
which means i'll be out of contact with the outside world for another 4 days.

goodbye world!

boo.

here to save my blog from rotting. hmmm. nothing much changed around here. just enjoying my time watching teevee and all. haha. okay. shall go now. toodles.

HEAR ME SCREAM.

i am really at my wits' end. i'm doing all i can
not to burst out with all my stupid unhappiness.
all i ever get from this home is shelter - a place to live.

i'm awake. i'm focused. i'm done fretting. done living in a bubble outside reality.

haven't blogged for awhile. hmmm. o levels ended a few days ago. went out with friends and fell sick the next day. again. and then stayed at home since then. my room's apparently in a mess still cause i'm not yet done arranging my books in order. make space for all the new books huh. mother actually scolded me for throwing out all my seconday school books, saying that i should keep them for another few months. she's trying to mean that i will retain in sec4 -.-" i haven't much enjoyed myself since exams ended. but i feel so free. too free actually. and it makes me uncomfortable, thinking i should be studying or something instead of stoning and watching grey's anatomy on repeats in my dvd player.

i'm really bored now. it's like suddenly i have all this time. and i'm not enjoying one bit of it. i hate change. i hate the change in people.

there are some songs that you love yet hate it. hate it damn freaking much cause as the song plays, memories have also begun to play out as well. i think this current blogsong rocks. not that it brings up anything of the past. just that i cried when i heard this song in grey's anatomy. ha. this is one random thought in my pathetic life.

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you don't shoot it
how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
but she's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you don't shoot it
how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

no