wait.

quiet...

hmmm. everyday you'll see a girl so blue. she's no longer green like wat she used to be. sigh. i saw my chemistry paper. it wasnt good to other people. but to me, it was better than i expected. well, i expected not much of tat. but english? i cant stand it. i wanna jump down a building. and. you guys can just help me burn these papers and i'll see it in hell.

fine. i'm just another boring outdated girl. i lost my sense of humor. one joke also cannot crack. i dont wanna be some kind of lame-O. sigh. had photo taking. bel was strangling me during the class photos. then lydia suggested that we become angels for our cca fun shot. it was hella fun there. had this meeting with my camp group too. nice trying to get to know them. i played dress up with my new set of np uniform just now. laughs.

but wait.

just wait...

you have no right to scold me. i know. i forgot. you are perfect. and i am not. i know you have every reason to look down on me. my results. my dressing. my way of life. forget it. i'm just a detestable pest in everyone's eyes. i'm sick of this.

and then.

you didnt call. you didnt keep your words. why aint you here when i'm feeling most terrible. you dont need me anymore huh. forget it. everyone has their new friends. you can just dumb away the old.