blah.
boring.
tuition ended.
alone at home.
deep in thoughts.

i don't wanna think about it anymore. can't i?
somehow, i do not feel any pain.
slap me in the face.
stab me in the heart.
slash my wrist also can.
still, i feel no pain.
tears were not shed.

i guess i've too been numbed.
by all these.

i do not feel angry. nor do i feel as hurt.


just disappointed.


i've forgotten the reason why i told myself, tat i mustn't fall for this bloody trap.
forgotten the reason why i chose to stay away from all these, for the past two years since tat.
forgotten the reason why i made that vow. never to fall for anyone again.
forgotten the lesson i learnt because of tat.
but now, i remember why.
the reason was simple.
i just didn't want to get hurt once more.
but still ended up falling into tat trap once again.
such stupidity.
it was my mistake. i will not accept your apology.
cause there ain't anything to be sorry for.


after this post, our lives would go on.
and get better.

thank you for all the days you were there for me.
during the 3 days 2 nights atc.
for cheering me up everytime.
and even when i had a fever.
thanks for making my days perfect.
i love you. as a friend.


accept the reality. friends forever.