after mass, nanyang jc open house, and denyse birthday bbq, i was already tired out.

just finished washing the freaking toilet. i rushed through it. anyway. thanks grace for accompanying me to eat my dinner at 9 plus. so i crapped with grace till the bus arrived at 9.50pm and she left for home. also told her tat i shall not bother going out at all. shall isolate the detestable me from the world. and start doing revision. because i'm the dumbest ass in the entire universe.

the reason i kept quiet throughout the journey's not because i was being unreasonable, venting anger on you all. it's just tat. watever i joke, you'll always take it so seriously. and make me feel like i'm insulting you instead. and hurting you. now who wants to hurt a friend. or maybe, no one has ever thought me as one. and so it was meant to be a compliment. you topped your class for amath. so wat i said about your math sucks, was obviously a joke. because how could your maths suck. then wat am i to you. does tat mean i'm insulting myself too. because your marks are like 4 times of mine. thanks jolene. you rock. you're the "smartest" person on earth.

how to avoid hurting people verbally again.
shall not talk.
will not talk.
must not talk.