jolene, you're pathetic.
why are you blogging at 2am in the morning.


tskkk.


ah. there, silence.


i'm looking for a place that's commonly depicted in movies.

a grass field,
a neat tree on a small hill,
a gentle breeze passing by.


i am choking on the haze.
it's so thick that i can barely smell anything else but the haze.
haha. okay, i'm a bit exaggerating on that.
but so far, i really smell nothing but haze.
oh the particles that create this haze are irritating my eyes.

JOLENE HAS DECLARED THAT SHE SHALL NOT SLEEP TILL SHE IS DONE WITH ECONS NOTES-MAKING.

my notebook right now, has full of words slanting; lines randomly going downwards and upwards.

a random thought.
the word i've encountered most often (so far) this year is:
complacency.
be it me or the people around.
who wouldnt be? when we're all comfortable with where we are now.
or where we once were.
where were our constant reminders to be humble. reminders that we regarded as something of significance; always telling ourselves never to let our guard down.
looking back at oursleves at another perspective, i realised we dont have anything so THAT good to be complacent about.
thus, we must work harder.
we must never let our comfortable living get the best out of us.
remember total defence? be vigilant, always!~


i must work harder.
i should stop lazing around in my comfort zone.


oh yes, indeed,
jolene may just be beyond hope.


ramblingggggg.
okay. i've been reflecting quite a bit.
the only problem about reflecting right now is that:
I SHOULD BE STUDYING FOR EXAMS.

urgh. i know 2 papers dont seem a lot.
BUT I SHOULDN'T BE COMPLACENT RIGHT?
RIGHT!
THERE MAY JUST BE TOO LITTLE TIME LEFT,
since i've got trainings, kayaking and visiting to do during this exam period eh.
lol.

thus,
as long winded as i am,
i have declared no sleep till i finish the daunting notes.
okay, i'm talking too much. and wasting everyone's time by going about in a circle.
in other words, i'm trying to stall time so that i wont have to get back to my notes that's going to happen all too soon.
but oh wells, i've ran out of things to say. haha.

till we meet again;