TRUST. NOBODY.

NOT EVEN YOURSELF.


there's a saying, treat people the way you want them to treat you.
but, what happens when you treat people nice, trust them, be there for them, let them vent anger on you, yet in return, you get nothing back except being shoved one side when they are all healed and have got back to their feet.
and maybe, they might even wish to backstab you at some point of time. out of powerhungry-ness, out of envy, out of thrill, out of i-dont-know-what.
the most ironic thing is that they came to rant and complain about how others have treated them in the first place.
it hurts to feel used. like when they have come to you in hopes that you would provide them some comfort, and then leave you, when they no longer need you.

yes, it's true that when you're angry, you say hurtful and offensive things.
but you know you don't mean it.

it's okay, i'll withdraw from all that ranting.
i'll be strong enough.



but anyway, i'm not all that upset.

i'm glad i have friends who are there for me.
they are there for me when i need them.
and come to me even when i don't go to them.
regardless of whether you need them or not, they are ALWAYS there.
it doesn't always mean being physically there though. because our lives have begun to get too busy for everyone to gather and meet up.
still, i'm grateful. and i can't show enough gratitude towards them.
because, how can i possibly take them for granted.
it's like a precious rare gem which you can't just happen to stumble upon and find every other day.
i am really really thankful. so so much.