i haven't met up with quite a lot of people.
i hope they are doing well in life.


anyway,
i came to realize there are so much that i'll have to leave this year.

1) Singapore Poly
Even though it's mostly feelings of reluctance to go classes and all,
it's where i've spent the last 3 years, filled with great times and times of frustration. i'm honestly glad to be able to learn and gain so much invaluable experiences that i may not have the chance to in future, as well as having met such wonderful people who i can count on as friends. so thank you, SP, for letting me study here.

2) Part Time Job
On days that i'm not schooling, you can most probably find me there. i do love being there. the drinks, the job, the people, and the person are the reasons that i admit made me love this more than i thought i would. but i'm leaving prematurely, after a year of juggling (or rather struggling at times) with school and work. although hesitant, i know it's for the better, somehow...

3) NPCC
8 years. it's like a huge part of me. it feels as though i grew up there. this 'family' will always be the bittersweet memories of my life. the previous attempts of me letting go had proved to be futile, but after much that have gone by, i feel further from it, more than ever- more ready to leave. i do miss it so much, and perhaps it's because of this odd love for it that's making it so hard for me to leave after all these years when so many have long left the corps by then. but my decision to leave this commitment would definitely not be because of fading feelings for it i assure you though, because it's not fading, just simply time. it's time to move on. there's really so much emotions that i'm feeling right now, but all i can say is the gratitude i have towards it for absolutely everything. i'll still always be a part of it i know, but it'll be different as we all grow older.

so after all that's being said and done, i will miss them all. it really saddens me that i'm leaving these all at once, because they have become a part of me. some, more than others. in any way, they have made me who i am now. these places are where i know who i am there. nevertheless, thank you, for every opportunity for me to learn and grow. they have provided me a sense of belonging, in which gives me the comfort in life.


it ain't about giving up.
this is about letting go,
so as to allow self to embrace another aspect of life you never thought you'd let into your life.
as what has been said so many times,
when one door closes, another door opens.