i'm exhausted.

i feel like fading out,
perhaps what i've always suspected had been right all this time,
that i'm not paranoid whenever i feel that my presence is nothing but a nuisance.

perhaps the reason for me feeling nostalgic this holidays, like
having the urge to dig out my gameboy to play pokemon yellow,
or watching old favourite shows of the distant past,
or drifting out in the midst of something to relive the best years of our lives in my head,
was because i'm missing this simplicity of life back then.
even the simplest of things now could remind me of such bittersweet memories.
i wonder if the rest have long moved on and left these memories behind.

let's hide away in a place, far from the crowd,
where no one else can find us,
where we can be ourselves because there's no need to care about any particular 'image' we have to uphold,
or expectations to meet,
where people won't judge you for who you are,
knowing that no matter how crazy we may be at times,
or how annoyimg we may be,
we still love each other.

genuine friendships.
just can't explain the happiness found with them around,
all i know i believe that the smiles and tears have been true.