just came back from my family reunion dinner. haha. my jie and aunt were so lame today -.-" the food was okay. also celebrated my mother's and brother's birthday. heh.


"you nodded"
"i nodded because..."

seven sins. Anger, is one of them. sorry. i nodded because i wanted you to know tat i understood your frustration. i'm guilty as charged. i've made you angry again. didn't know tat you'd get tat upset upon seeing me having some sort of communication with..... but it was unplanned. i was not even the one who started the ____ i didn't have any intention of spiking you. i have no drugs. dont angry le): i love my birdie loads. i promise i wont ___ __ __ again if you dont want me to!

i got tired of trying to edit the photo collage of mine.
so i ended up taking another blogskin.com code.
laughs. kind of remind me of val's one. ah wells.

maybe the problem really lies with me.


latern festival with the haze -.-"

sparklers.


candles in sand.


cynthia, denyse, grace and yue ying figuring how to use a lighter...

after mass, nanyang jc open house, and denyse birthday bbq, i was already tired out.

just finished washing the freaking toilet. i rushed through it. anyway. thanks grace for accompanying me to eat my dinner at 9 plus. so i crapped with grace till the bus arrived at 9.50pm and she left for home. also told her tat i shall not bother going out at all. shall isolate the detestable me from the world. and start doing revision. because i'm the dumbest ass in the entire universe.

the reason i kept quiet throughout the journey's not because i was being unreasonable, venting anger on you all. it's just tat. watever i joke, you'll always take it so seriously. and make me feel like i'm insulting you instead. and hurting you. now who wants to hurt a friend. or maybe, no one has ever thought me as one. and so it was meant to be a compliment. you topped your class for amath. so wat i said about your math sucks, was obviously a joke. because how could your maths suck. then wat am i to you. does tat mean i'm insulting myself too. because your marks are like 4 times of mine. thanks jolene. you rock. you're the "smartest" person on earth.

how to avoid hurting people verbally again.
shall not talk.
will not talk.
must not talk.

last 2 papers today.


i feel sick. no. no part of me felt relieved when we complete the very last paper.

no. i dont have the mood to rejoice.
no. i can only stop freaking out the day we'll get back our papers.
no. i will not cry. i'm already mentally prepared.


i just need to see my marks...
i cant get over my chemistry paper still. and english. and amaths. i just dont get it. why was i so dumb.
sigh. so anyway. mahjong-ed with karin, yue ying, cynthia, amanda and denyse. wanted to nap on the bed. but they were PONG-ing and singing jay chou songs. so ya... ... ....

no. dont say tat we ought to have some confidence in ourselves. because. it's stated there already. tat i am a failure. with all those bloody freaking blanks. just rate me stupid. thank you. shall end off my day now then. nites people.
no one was mentioning about this girl. so why would the girl think it as tat way? perhaps, it's the guilt inside her. or maybe, she's just being thick-skin... ... ...

hmmm.

gonna be two now.
got out of bed at 12 and decided to mug -.-" how. i can't sleep. lucky today no paper for me. hahas. good luck for the bio people today all rights(: i wonder if cynthia have finished studying. if only bio text comes in the form of television. laughs.


sigh.
bored. talking to carmen and cherly online now. apparently, carmen's burning midnight oil although i'm sure she studied like soo beforehand -.-" and cherly, just couldnt sleep. and is trying to make me jealous because she's done with her N's already. FINE. hahas. whee. zZz.