hmmm. my mother said i'm not a good enough leader. i cannot lead. the power that was given to me, i took it for granted. i do not care for the welfare of others. i'm just so self-centered. oh well. with my ego so big. not accepting all the critism that was said. i'm a no good leader. everytime i would just wanna give up. i'll never fail to break down crying. i'm not strong enough to lead. wat to do. ha. my mother made me realise this mistake. and there are many other mistakes that i discovered all by myself. but i won't blog it all out. this ain't some kind of novel. -_-"

so anyway. all these tiny imperfections ain't going to bother me anymore. hmmm. supposed to meet big bird, papa, mama and kak for jogging today. but projects are such a chore always. humph. so went to bernice house today, at 10am, to do our chinese project. it was fun. goose, bernice, steffi, rebecca and i are going to rock for this presentation. but i was rather tired during the discussion. i didn't sleep much at all today. when i returned home from airport this morning, i began unpacking my stuff and all... and then. i slept at 0655. and woke up to amanda's call at 0845. hahas. and it was surprising that i am still so energetic yeah. ahaha. i miss atc suddenly. i miss area 7's team spirit. today, i dreamt about our area 7 games day. sjc will win lots of trophies this year. i hope. erm. going to meet my princess bel at chomp chomp soon... i'm gonna eat everything there. bleahx. i wanna go airport tomorrow to do my homework. should i? laughs. but i dont know what time's your flight. haha. lame. but i just can't wait to see you again.