i'm a happy girl.

first day of school was all right. time table was changed. but lessons are still the same old boring stuff, aint it? then during recess, was when all the syf people in our squad headed for the national stadium. i was on the verge of breaking down can. i felt so left out. i had no where to go in classes. and i wanted to do footdrills. still. i'm not going to regret the desicion tat i made.

sigh. don't wanna go school tomorrow. i don't wanna see the seniors pass out... yet. i'm like so happy for my squadmates. but i don't know why i just can't feel all tat excitement anymore. i told myself tat i would be happy regardless of all these posts... and i am. i really am. but why is there something telling me tat everything i had put in for these two years, was nothing but rubbish. teacher's day dance. cheerleading competition. pop skit'04. campfire perfomance'05. vertical challenge. npdp'05. pop skit'05. horizon challenge. campcraft com. marksman. argh. all these sheet. nothing but rubbish.

can someone just make me feel at least one bit appreciated.