i'm back. like finally.
apparently. when my plane touched down, it was stated 0008. so it's considered monday already.

it's like when i was leaving on wednesday tat 10am flight, i left my heart here and just flew over to there. my gosh. i didn't even enjoy myself there. why would anyone enjoy a holiday when she's being forced to go? and when all her friends are here. and when i've not touched my homework one bit. but anyway!! i must tell you guys. some might end up killing me when they find out wat i've bought for them. ha. it's really gonna make you guys strangle me. but what the heck. i think it's really cute for those FEW PRETTY GIRLS YEAH?! lalala. shall not elaborate much wat i did there though. disneyland wasn't much as exciting as i thought it would be... sigh. will upload the photos later. you guys must go take a look kaes.


read everyone's blog. somehow, i felt like i've missed out so much. really wanted to be there for you, mel. so sorry. hmmm.

oh well. it's almost 0300 now. i'm like so sad now. i was planning to leave all my unhappiness there, but then as i reflected upon my actions i did in the past, i brought home even more problems. i regret not being able to see my mistakes when i had the chance to change it. i'm a bad friend to everyone. sigh. so long already... when can i see you? did you know i was hoping that you would suddenly appear in the streets. or even hope tat you were staying at the same hotel as mine. sigh. you must be sleeping right now.

i was thinking in the plane. in the bus. in the hotel. and even at the restaurant till i lost my appetite.
tat i know i've broke this promise. cause if you realised, i was still an immature dumb-ass at that time when i made tat promise. but when i broke this vow of mine, i didn't know i'd not only given my word to her, but to everyone else?! i thought tat this promise was between us, but then suddenly i feel that the promise was somewat related to EVERYONE?! i gave it to tat darn person whom hurt me TWICE, which i came to realise that it wasn't worth. and when i broke it, i thought i had only let her down. it never came across my mind tat there was someone else too, whom i had let down. i did not know how important tat promise was. sigh. i don't have the right to hurt others. and i can't do anything about it now. but i just wanna say all these. cause it wouldn't stay within me. and. i'm sorry. i've kept it from you.