sometimes, i wish that you'd just fight for this.


damn it, is it really so hard?
isnt this worthy for you to fight than to just give up?
too busy? too many other problems surfacing all the time? too lazy?
too tired? can't be bothered?
excuses after excuses.
you're not the only who's busy. you're not the only who has other problems to settle.
if it's really this important to you, no matter how busy, you'll put in the effort to make time.
i've been waiting for so long already.
it's not just today, or yesterday. it's been for too long.
keeping quiet doesnt mean it does not exist.
hoping that you'd stop sweeping every problem under the carpet and pretending it never did happen.
wondering when you'd take the initiative to solve things for once.
i was just waiting.






but it looks like it's all in vain.










my final initiative; to solve the last problem we'll ever have.










and although the answer may lay before us now,
i still hope for it to change.
still awaiting for you to take the initiative.
i'm done being the one making the first moves in situations.

sigh. why bother blogging it here? it's not like it'll ever be made known.
lately, this blog had become a final resting place to my heartfelt problems.
it's the only place that will always be there for me to confide in.
after all, i dont want to waste other people's time in my rants.
i'm not worthy of your time.