there's a saying... the girl always knows.


knowing is one thing,
confirming is another.
without the confirmation of what we think it may be,
we'd sometimes like to think that we're thinking too much, or being oversensitive, or that our assumptions are flawed.
and at other times, we're pretty sure we're right but we choose to live in self-denial, thinking that what we know are all wrong.
but most of the time,
at the end of the day, we still would like to hear the truth from the people themselves, to confirm everything that we may know.
we have the right to the truth, no matter how much it hurts.
so that there's no need to allow for people to spend most of their time wondering and doubting and trying to figure out things that they'll never know without the truth that you withhold from them.

and i know that i may never know the truth to this,
in which, i have to painfully accept the fact we may not always know the reason behind everything.

all that's left to do now is to just... let go.